Welcoming 2010…

I have to say when 2009 rolled in, I was none too happy. There was were so many unknowns with my surgery scheduled just weeks later. Little did I know the journey that was ahead. The indescribable emotional pain. The many tears shed over my uncooperative body. Keeping all this baggage from people I hold close (except the DH) but still needing their support nonetheless. I have healed a lot from last spring.

After wrestling with what our next step would be, God made things very clear for us. I’ll try to share a little of that revelation with you.

Back in October my husband attended a Christian leadership conference called Catalyst. They tend to have a main focus each year and this year just happened to be adoption. But before I go on, I have to fill you in on a little back story. My DH and I have have known each other for 15 years. We’ve officially been “together” for 12. For some reason we just started using the numbers 143 (pager talk back in the day) for I Love You (I=1, Love=4, You=3). We type it in emails, twitter, facebook, cards, you name it. It’s our thing. Well, after the last day of the conference he comes home and I notice a little leather “X” hanging from his lanyard with little whole punched numbers reading “143” on it. I’m thrilled to see it because it so represents us. My DH’s eyes begin to fill with tears as he begins to speak of its significance. That little “X” was made by orphans in Africa and the “143” represents 143 million orphans in the world. I too get emotional because the sign we had been pleading for was made quite evident in a piece of leather. We were meant to adopt.

I think the decision we made to adopt has begun to heal my heart. When 2010 rolls around we’ll start the journey. I’m not sure I’m ready for another year of ups and downs but I know God is in control of it all.

I found this song on adoption and I just love the lyrics because that little girl sounds just like me.

The Gift We Could Not Give Each Other
Words and Music by Michael Mclean

When she was a little girl she held her dolls like children.
Dreaming of the day when she’d have babies of her own.
Now those dolls lie on a shelf as lifeless as the dreams she dreamed.
It’s become the deepest ache her heart has ever known.
There’s a man who’s trying his best to comfort her with roses.
Telling her he’ll find a way to make their dreams come true.
He’s been saying this for years, but now his tears reveal the truth.
In his heart he fears there’s nothing else that they can do.
Then a gift is given, a phone call straight from heaven.
There’s a child that’s nearly due that a young girl’s giving you.
She gave more than just one life when she makes of this man and wife a father and a mother.She gives the gift they could not give each other.
More than we could ever know this couple thanks the heavens.
Every time they hold their child, they feel they hold the world.
Words will never be enough to share the way the family feels.
From deep inside their hearts they want to tell that girl:
Not a day is ever through till we’ve thanked the Lord for you.
Your sweetness lingers near in our hearts and thoughts and prayers.
You gave more than just one life when you made of this man and wife,
a Father and a Mother. When you gave the gift we could not give each other.
You have changed our lives forever. Only you and God above could give this gift of love we could not give each other.


One Response

  1. I Love You!

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